Thank you so much, I cried … I have read and will continue to read and learn and change before it is too late. I do not know you but you have saved my life if I can do the work. This reading is a gift. Thank you sister Cecilia Beverly. Before my life became cursed and sad… my earliest memory was my love for God and Jesus Christ and desire to be a loving and protecting angel. Then I was robbed of my innocence. I can blame my upbringing and society and I think that is why you listed all the possible outcomes and reasons people violate the orders of God but I firmly believe in taking responsibility of my actions and working towards a solution. I had hope and faith that I would return back to that young girl who wanted to wash Jesus wounds and also dreamed that that little girl never died. I threw myself before the church and prayed…. And found myself in discernment. I have been so imperfect in my journey but surrendering myself to Gods will has liberated me more than any other freedom. I know with me he will make the correct choice for the greater good as he has and will for each and every one of us.i apologize for talking so much. Thank you again for everything your highness, sir knights for the kingdom.

Please have mercy and pity my afflicted soul. I am addicted to my vices but I mean no disrespect by trying to change and when I fail. I do not mean to upset God or any angels by praying or aiming to be with my lost loved ones in heaven. I am worried that the hold on me is so strong that I still run back to my old ways. At what point do we know to give up trying to go to heaven and be good ? When do we know to let go for the sake of heavens safety, to protect the good in the world and in heaven? I do sometimes think how wonderful it would be to be with my family in heaven but would it be fair and would I even deserve it and what could it cost? I love God and I love heaven… I would never dream of being an entry point for demons to enter their sanctuary because I am afflicted by sins of the flesh..please, guide me and if you can, pray for me. I am scared. I am very scared. I am hoping reading this book and making a habit of it will save me from the fiery pits of hell and my ways…. My ways that are entangled in sex and running back to someone who is not necessarily bad but together we sin and it is exquisite to me in the moments but in the aftermath it is most scary…. Please help. I want to be rid of my demons but am struggling to get them to release the hold on me they have that is planted like roots deep in my mind or clutches me the way snakes wrap around legs… I’m very scared